SMS PART II!!!

And that was also how it all started. A day would
not pass without it loving and thoughtful messages
from her. It was only then I had learned to
appreciate text messages and become eager
and excited everytime my phone beeped, hoping
it would be her.

Angel brought out something about me that I never
knew I had; I realized I could also be a romantic
person… even if it’s just through text messaging.

“Keep me as a frnd & I will keep u in my heart.
Lock it up & throw away d key so dat no1 can evr
tke u away from me…” One day, she sent this
message to me.

I replied: ‘In life, we seldom find a true prson & f u
evr find 1, hold on & nver let go… value dat prson
coz it’s lyf’s gift worth keeping & holdin on…”

I didn’t know why I sent her that message, but
somehow I felt, every word came from my heart. In
the short span of time we were sending
messages to each other, I knew, I was starting to
keep her in my heart.

I called her once. The voice on the other end was
like an angel’s. Soft, kind, full of love. Yet, there
was something in it I couldn’t de fine. We only
talked for a few minutes. Before she hung up, she
told me not to call again. According to her, it
would be better if we would just text each other.

But the voice kept ringing, not only in my head, but
in my heart, I’d long to hear it once more. I tried to
call her again, but she never answered the phone.
She just kept on sending messages and
quotations, which I copied in a little notebook.

Hopeless romantic? I didn’t know. All I could say
was that all the messages she sent me were
wonderful, they came from the heart and cut
through the heart.

“Though we r miles apart, u r always n my heart. I
close my eyes & der u r. Even f I’ll see u never, I’ll
always b hir 2 care 4 u, far longer dan 4ever…”
One December night, she sent me this message.
By that time we had been exchanging messages
for more than a month.

God knew how happy I
was. She was right. Although we had not seen
each other, what we felt was enough to make us
both realize what was keeping us together.

I sent her another message, “Loving u secretly is a
hard thing 4 me 2 do, hoping, wondring that u will
feel d same way 2, but I can’t read ur mind f u luv
me 2. But whatever it is, I’ll still be loving u.”

“How I wish I cud really tell u how much u mean 2
me, but m afraid 2 love, scared 2 get hurt… I hope
dat u will wait 4 me & pray dat u will not get tired
of loving me…=)” was her reply.

And then I replied again. “ The reason y I met u is
bcoz of destiny but f destiny will suggest dat I’ll live
w/o u, den, I’ll lie not by destiny but of free will.”

Whenever I asked her when we would meet
personally, she always answered, “Soon…soon…
soon, my love.”

Not seeing each other did not lessen, even a bit,
what I felt for her…rather, it even grew deeper and
stronger each day. And I was sure, she felt the
same way, too. Love messages continued to flow
through our lines, between our hearts, which made
us go on each day with the thought that sooner,
we would see each other, face to face, heart to
heart.

Just a few days before Christmas. She stopped
sending messages. At first I just though she had
ran out of prepaid. but there was something that
kept bothering me… I couldn’t understand what
was it, but it made me fell nervous. I tried to call
her but she wouldn’t answer. Nevertheless, I
continued sending messages.

Suddenly one night, just three days before our
Lord’s birthday. I heard my phone’s message tone
again… at last! It was from her!

“Oftentyms we say gudbye 2 d 1 we luv w/o
wanting 2. Though dat doesn’t mean dat we
stopped loving dem or we stopped 2 care.
Sometyms, GOODBYE is a painful way 2 say
ILOVEU....”

I was dumfounded. I didn’t know what to think of.
What did she mean? I texted her back, searching
for answers, but found nothing. I called her but she
would not answer.

For the first time in my life, I felt so miserable…
desperate… empty. I didn’t know what to do. I
didn ’t want to lose her. I had learned to love her.
And I wanted to be with her forever.

The following days I felt nothing but emptiness. It
seemed that Angel took the life out of me. I
missed her so much…her messages…The tones
that would tell me she’d sent another loving
message. Nothing around me could feel the
emptiness I felt.

Tut…tut…tut…tut…tut…just a day before
Christmas, my cell beeped again. It was her!!!!

“Meet me at d café, 10 AM 2day,” I read aloud,
making sure the message was true, then I jumped
with joy upon hearing from her again. Hurriedly, I
got myself ready and I went to the mall. I knew it
was still early, but I wanted to be there before she
arrived.

SMS PART I!!!

"My cellphone’s beeping sound woke me up one
night. Used to receiving important messages only,
I grabbed my cell and sleepily pushed the keys
and read the message.

“Hi there! Care 2 b my txtmate?” Not knowing who
the sender was, I deleted the message right away
and placed the phone on my bedside table, I tried
to go back to sleep.

I had just closed my eyes when I heard the
message tone again... “Hi there, again! Care 2 b
my txtmate?” again, the message said. “Who the
hell could this be asking for a txtmate at the wee
hours of the night?” I asked myself. Again, without
bothering to reply I deleted the message.

I was never a ‘textmaniac’ - someone who enjoys
texting anyone and everyone even at the wee
hours of night, not to mention during the day. My
parents, who were always out of the country
forced me to own a cellphone. They told me that
having one was more convenient - they could
monitor me even if they’re miles away.

I wanted to turn the unit off, but since my mother
was fond of calling me at night, just to check if I
was safe at home, I decided not to. Just as I was
to close my eyes and return to my dreamless
sleep, the phone beeped again.

Same number…Such determination!

“Ply reply 2 dis msg & b an angel & save me frm
dis abyss of emptiness!!!” I never knew why, but
the message struck me. I got up and pushed the
keys… I just realized I was replying to the
message.

“Im not an angel, n f u want som1 2 save u, m not
a superman… I’m just a simple prson who u wake
up at dis r of my nyt!!! Nway, do I know u?” I
typed.... Seconds later came the reply.

“Nope. U don’t know dis lonely soul. Nor does she
know u. But I want 2 b ur frend. I’m Angel... U?”
“Just call me Heaven. How’d u get my no.?” I sent
back.

“Hi Heaven, nice 2 meet u. Just shuffled the last
two digits of mine,” she replied.

That was the first and maybe the last time I met
someone over the cellphone. We exchanged
messages and learned so much about each other
that night. We only said goodbye when my alarm
clock rang at 5:00 AM! I had to prepare for
school!

MID-AUTUMM FESTIVAL!!!

Its Mooncake festival but untill now i haven eaten any mooncakes yet.... This festival represents a lot of things ermm got long goose, stupid jade labbit, 9 suns, hou yi, mooncake, lanterns, big big round round moon, blah blah blah...

Ba yue shi wu has duel meanings too hmm one is mooncake festival the other is gluteusmaximus aka kar cheng...Playing cai deng mi is also another tradition to keep up with the tradition today got wo cai wo cai wo cai cai cai wahahaha....

It is a festival of love.... Guys can finally find an excuse to ask girls out to watch the moon....Here's something about the 4 person u will mit in life...

The Four Person You Will Meet In Life

Four people you will meet in life Life is the process of finding love;
every person will need to find four people in their life.

First person is you,
Second person is the one you love most,
Third person is the one who love you most,
And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of your life with.

In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love most, and learn how love feels.
Because you know how love feels, so you can find the person who loves you most.
When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved,
you will then know what it is you need most.

Then you will find the person who is most suitable for you,
to be able to spend the rest of your life with.
Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most doesn't love you.

The one, who love you most, is never the one you love most.
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love most or the one who love you most.
He is just the person who happens to be at the right place at the right time.
Which person are you in other people's life?

No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he loves you, he really loves you.
But when he doesn't love you anymore, he really doesn't love you anymore.
When he loves you, he can't pretend that he doesn't.

Same goes, when he loves you no more, there's no way he can pretend he loves you.
When a person doesn't love you and wants to leave you.
You must ask yourself if you still love him,
If you also don't love him anymore, do not keep him just to save your pride.

If you still love him, you should wish him happiness,
and hope that he will be with the one he loves most, not stop him from it.
If you stop him from finding true happiness with the one he loves,
it shows you already don't love him,

And if you don't love him, what rights do you have to blame him for a change of heart?
Love is not possessive, If you like the moon, you can't just take it down and put it in your basin,
But the moonlight still shines upon you.
In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method of possessing the person.

Let him become a permanent memory in you life.
If you really love a person, you must love him for what he is.
Love him for his good points, and the bad,
You can't wish for him to become like what you like him to be just because you love him.

If he can't change to become what you like him to be, you don,t love him anymore.
When you really love a person, you cannot find a reason why you love him,
You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood,
you will wish to have this person be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems
without asking for promises or listing criterias.
In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times,
not always be on the receiving end.

Being away from each other is a type of test,
If the relationship isn't strong,
then you can only admit defeat.
Real love will never become hate.

When two people are in love,
They love to ask each other to swear, to make promises.
Why do they ask each other to swear and promise?
Because they don?t trust each other, they don't trust their lover.
These swear and promises are useless;

Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!
We all know that the sky will never fall; the ocean will never dry,
Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?
Be careful when making promises;

Don't make promises that you cannot keep.
Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen,
so no harm just saying it casually.
Remember, Swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching!!?

In a relationship, what you say is one thing,
but what you do is another;
The one saying, doesn't believe; the one listening, also doesn't believe.

Which person have you found so far?
In the world so big, which person have you found? And who has found you?

Here's a short story :)

Two ppl r on a motorcycle on the road

girl: slow down. im scared.
guy: no this is fun.
girl: no its not. please, its too scary!

guy: then tell me you love me.
girl: fine, i love you. slow down!
guy: now give me a BIG hug.::
girl hugs him::

guy: can you take my helmet off & put it onyourself? its bugging me.

(in the paper the next day):a motorcycle had crashed into a building becauseof break failure.
two people were on it, but only1 survived.
the truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his breaks broke,
but he didn't want to let the girl know. instead,

he had her say she loved him & felt her hug one last time,
then had her wear his helmet
so that she would live even though it meant that he would die....

COUNTDOWN!!

Its an amazing day woke up @ 7.30 instead of sleeping @ 7.30 wahahhahaz :x

Every new year's eve, Christmas eve, Wadever eve there is always a countdown cum party held at many places all over the world.. I have been to some countdowns and i am currently also conducting my own countdown the "countdown to ORD" hahazz...

In a very old movie called "Yue Guang Bao He" Stephen Chow(Zhou Xing Chi) said "If i were to give love a timeframe, i wished it is 10,000 years.." How long will u be able to love another person? 10 years? 50 years? 100days? Here's a story that is widely circulated around the net:-

100 DAYS

Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing,but just gazing into the sky,
while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half.
Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with.
Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now.
(both sigh n there was silence for a while)

Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game
Peter: Eh? What game?Tina: Eem..It's quite simple.
You be my boyfriend for100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days.what do you think?
Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months.
Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up.

Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go?
Peter: What about a movie?
I heard that there is a really great movie in theater now.
Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move.
(went to watch their movies and sent each other home)

Day 2:Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star.
Day 3:They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present.
Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time.

Day 7:Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together.
When the night came and the moonglowed,
they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together.
A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.

Day 25:Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters,
and ate hotdogs and cotton candy.
Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and
Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident.
They laughed together for a while.

Day 67:They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show.
The midget asked Tina to play a part as his assistant in the magic show.
Went around to see other entertainments around after the show.
Came to a fortune teller and she just said
"Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortuneteller's cheek.

Day 84:Tina suggested that they go to the beach.
The beach wasn't so crowded that day.
They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.

Day 99:They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city.
They sit down onto a bench.
1:23 pm Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.
Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks.What would you like?
Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.

1:43 pmTina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter havent return.
Then someone walked up to her.
Stranger: Is your name Tina?
Tina: Yes, and may I help you?

Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy.
I think its your friend.
Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and
sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands.

The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter.
Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours.
The doctor came out, and he sigh.
11:51 pm Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could.
He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon.

We found this letter inside his pocket.
The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter.
He look weak but peaceful.
Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears.

Here is what the letter said.Tina, our 100 days is almost over.
I had fun with you during all these days.
Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful,
but these all brought happiness into my life.

I have realize that you are a really cute girl and
blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that.
I have nothing much to ask for,but I just wish that we can extend the day.
I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time.
Tina, I love you.

11:58Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the wish I made on the night there was a meteor.
I asked God to let us last forever.
We were suppose to last 100 days
so Peter! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back to me now?

I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU.
As the clock struck twelve,
Peter's heart stopped beating.
It was 100 days..

CONCLUSION

Tell the guy or girl that you love them before its too late. You never know whats going to happen tomorrow. You never know who will be leaving you and never return."The heart has its reasons which reason cannot know..."

Everytime also post sad story... Here's a Sweet story to end this post....

A newlywed couple had only been married for two weeks.
The husband, although very much in love,
couldn't wait to go out on the town and party with his old buddies.
So, he said to his new wife,
"Honey, I'll be rightback."

"Where are you going, coochy cooh?" asked the wife.
"I'm going to the bar, pretty face. I'm going to have a beer."
The wife said, "You want a beer, my love?"
She opened the door to the refrigerator and showed him 25 different kinds of beer,
brands from 12 different countries: Germany, Holland, Belgium, Japan, India, etc.

The husband didn't know what to do, and the only thing that he could think of saying was,
"Yes, lolly pop, but at the bar...you know...they have frozen glasses..."
He didn't get to finish the sentence, because the wife interrupted him by saying,

"You want a frozen glass, puppy face?"
She took a huge beer mug out of the freezer,
so frozen that she was getting chills just holding it.
The husband, looking a bit pale, said,

"Yes, tootsie roll, but... at the bar...
they have those hors d'oeuvres that are really delicious... I won't be long,
I'll be right back. I promise. OK?"

"You want hors d'oeuvres, poochi pooh?"
She opened the oven and took out 5 dishes of different hors d'oeuvres:
chicken wings, pigs in blankets,mushroom caps, pork strips, etc.

"But my sweet honey at the bar...you know... there's swearing, dirty words and all that..."
"You want dirty words, cutie pie? ..............

"LISTEN UP, DICKHEAD! DRINK YOUR F**KING BEER IN YOUR GODDAMNN FROZEN MUG AND EAT YOUR MOTHERF**KING SNACKS, BECAUSE YOU ARE MARRIED NOW, YOU AREN'T GOING ANYWHERE! GOT IT, ASSHOLE?"

and, they lived happily ever after. Isn't that a sweet story?

CONSTRUCTION COMPLETED!!!

I have finished formatting my hard drive and now my hard drive is relatively empty....formatting is simply amazing it does wonders to the hard drive... the effects are amazing just like what makeup does for the face, what photoshop does for photos, what wonderbras does for the.....

It has solved many of the niggling problems that i had experienced with my computer for the past year...The frequent hanging...the runaway mouse... I managed to reconnect to my spare hard drive and browsing through the folders brought back some fond memories...

Yes it know its wrong to live in the past and we should always look forward to the future and live for todae becoz yesterday is history, tommorow has yet to come and today is a gift thats why they call it present.... but without yesterday will there be today? Without the past will we become what we are today? The past be it good or bad, beautiful or ugly, happy or sad... helps to mould our characters....

Without failure will you ever know how sweet success taste? Without heartbreak will you learn to cerish the one that you love? Without hunger will you appriciate food? Without Army will you realise how warm and wonderful the comfort your home really is? Without war will you.....

We can never remember everything that we have done and we will always tend to overlook some small things that we think that are not important but we never realise that it is always the small things that leaves the deepest impression...Below is a short conversation i had wif my favorite ASM in camp when i was doing clearance...

ASM:- U very lame leh...I still remember what u said to Plump Officer1 in brunei...
Me:- Huh what did i say in Brunei? So long liao u still remember meh...
ASM:-Still remember in Brunei when we are carrying the duffel bags to load into vehicles to send to the airport?
Me:- Yupz...

This is what actually happened in Brunei

Plump Officer1:- Why don't we roll the duffel bag down then we collect it back once we reach the bottom..
Me:- Wah lao sir, u think the bag like u meh juz lie down i push can roll liao so ez meh...
(People around us including pulmp officer1 started luffing)
Plump Officer1:- eh ASM how come u r luffing?
ASM:- Funny mah...
Pump Officer1:- Only Commanders can luff at me u're only a man, u're not allowed to luff at me...
(ASM tried his best to close his mouth n luff)

As from this simple conversation i realised that it is true its not always the big things that you do that get remembered sometimes its the small things that makes a difference...

I was reunited with an interesting song that has been lying inside my spare hard drive untouched for about a year or so liaoz... Was quite glad that i am able to access my old songs again it is a song by a very telented music talent from malaysia...He is non other then Ah niu...

No the song is not dui mian de nu hai kan guo lai(the lady opposite look over here) rather it is the song that is sung by him and ah hui (i think its the hui ge from tcs coz sounds like him) that is playing on my blog now... A song that has never been played on radio coz it is a hokkien cum teochew song...

i like his songs a lot coz his songs are very different from others... He doesn't talk about love all the time but focuses on the things that are around him or things that are related to him... Things such as how the world has changed and the struggles of poor elderly people trying to earn a living selling vegetables on a tricycle (Cai san lun cher mai cai de lao ah poh)... It's quite a sad thing that he doesn't releases any more albums...but these things happens..

Changes happens all the time and it is the only constant thing that happens every minute, every second and when i came across a very old picture that i had in my hard drive i realise that i have changed a lot from the time that this picture was taken...

It was a picture of one of the very first irc outing i went... yes those days whereby i was still using a 56k modem to connect myself to the virtual world... the days whereby i could log in anytime at nite and find people to talk nonsence...the days whereby downloading a song takes me 20 minutes...Yup those were the happy days...

Net friends come and go... it is like pouring water into coffee strainer some of them will stay others will flow away.. We will never be able to keep all of them... Some of them have are now my best friends, some of them are still my net friends while many of them are no longer in contact with me... I have learnt many things from all of them...

I have seen many people become couples through irc outings....To those who are still together i hope that i will be able to witness ur weddings...For others well maybe it was not ment to be.....To end this post i shall post the photo up... I think a few of u all might regonise some of them espacially rach coz got ur ah lao whahahah :x

SATURDAY NIGHT FEVER!!!

Since lindie say she always cry after reading the stories.... and the moral of the story created by me spoils everything therefore i shall do a good dead and not post any stories for today....

Today is Saturday... To me Saturday = Soccer day... its now 47 matches without a defeat for the Gunners in the EPL and there was a very unlikely goal scorer in the form of Ashley Cole scoring in the 14 minute of the match against Manchester City... The gunners next match will be in the Champions league against Rosenborg of Norway... Hope that they will continue with their winning ways.... Below is the yandao who scored the goal

MANCHESTER CITY 0 : 1 ARSENAL

CONSTRUCTION IN PROGRESS!!!

Will be formatting my comp tonite so i think better post first later no time to post... Here's another story...

The story start wif a guy, name Paul and a girl named Ella..
Both of were still students but had already started to 'fall in love'..
In one of the days during their June holidays
which they have been waiting for, they met each other at a basketball court..

Coincidentally, they started playing a match wif each other.. they had fun..
As Ella knew one of the frens of Paul, she asked for Paul's number..
At tat time, Paul didn't want to fall in love again,
after getting so much hurt from the previous one..

Sadly, tat fren of Paul didn't give her the number..
As days went by, the holidays ended..
They met each other at another basketball near Ella's skool..
Days went by and Ella borrowed Paul's hp
and missed call her own hp to get his number..

Tat very nite, she smsed Paul.. They chatted and had fun..
Till one day, Ella expressed her love for Paul..
Paul loved her much too.. after thinking 4 a long time,
Paul thinks tat he and Ella would last,
thus, asked her if she would be his partner..

Obviously, she agreed.. They went steady for one and a half short mths..
Ella ended the relationship..
with her parents not allowing her to go steady as a reason..
who on earth would accept tat lame reason?

but Paul, like many other love victims, had no choice but to let go..
Years past and another fell in love wif Paul..
She was Mary.. Paul and Ella didn't contact for a very long time..
Paul still loved Ella very much..
but nvr had a chance to tell her.. one day, along a street,

Paul was wif Mary..
Paul saw a familiar figure across the road.. guess who was tat?
it was Ella..
Paul ran acrossed the road, without noticing a truck coming..

BANG!!

everyone near him crowded around tat area..
Mary screamed as she rushed to Paul.. Ella joined in the crowd..
She remembered the face, one who loved her so much in the past..
Next to him, was Mary.. He wasn't dead..

'dun give up.. say my name, 100 times, 1000 time, a million times..
u're gonna say it till u can finish a million b4 u can stop!!'
Mary said to Paul.. with tears in her eyes..
Everyone thought Mary was Paul's girl..

Standing at one side, alone, was a gerl crying..
tat's was Ella who regretted breaking up wif Paul,
after recalling how nice Paul treated her in the past..
Paul was sent to the Hospital..Mary and Ella were them.. Praying hard..

An operation was carried out.. Paul didn't survive..
The Doctor came out, shaking his head..
Sighed.. He too, thought tat Mary was Paul's gerlfren,
thus approached her for an apology for not being able to revive Paul...

He said to Mary: "Miss Ella.. your boyfren didn't survive..
he gave himself up after calling your name 157 times.. im sorry.."
The Doctor has actually mistook Mary for Ella..
Paul was calling out for Ella..

Ella cried in a corner..
She knew why he had stopped at 157..
tat was the day she broke wif him..(15/7) she, who ended the relationship
which Paul treasured so much, has in turn, ended Paul's life..

If you love someone deeply... Never leave that person... U will never know when u will need him/her back in your life again... Treasure your loved ones.. U will never know if your relationship with you partner would actually mean a kife to him/her...

Moral of the story:-

Before crossing the road look left, look right.......

SORRY SEEMS TO BE THE HARDEST WORD??

Its the idols again... i must agree that some of the unsung heros are really good singers and that the deut is inspirational but den a few of them are better off real "unsung heros" by not singing on tv ever again... Here's another internet story...

I'm Sorry....

It was first day of the mid-year exams,
therefore i finished school a little earlier, i called him,
Hey, i finished school earlier today, would youcome by and pick me up?
Alright, give me 5 minutes.

5 minutes? But my school is just beside your house.
I need to get ready. Alright, make it fast then.
2 pm in the afternoon, the sun is extremely hot,
I stood under a shaded tree and fan myself.

Although it doesn't make much of a difference,it was better that I fanned.
5 minutes have passed, he's still not shown up,
I was a lil' unhappy while looking at my watch.10 minutes and he's still not here....
couldn't be that he was met with an accident?

15 minutes passed, he finally shown up.
Why are you so late?He wasn't even a lil' bothered:
Nahz, was watchingTV. What?! TV?!
Why don't you sleep, bathe and eatbefore you come down then?

I haven't got anything else to say for that, didn't take the helmet he handed me
but stood there and stared at him.
Sorry.This was the first time he said sorry to me...
He is an egoistical person all along and has never once apologised to a girl.
I looked at him, Alright, took the helmet and let him sent me home.

He is always acting like this, no explanations,no friction, no quarrels.
The only thing he does is to apologise.
To me,somethings can't be settled with a sorry.
I would never go on asking after everytime he apologises.
He told me, that was the first time he said sorry to a girl.

Although it take courage to admit mistakes, he never once correct his mistakes.
Saying sorry became a word to shut me upinstead.
Tears flowed down my cheek on the 59th time he apologised.
I dropped my head: you don't ever need to say sorry to me again.

If you can never change, then don't let me keep giving you chances again and again
hoping and believing that you would change each time.
He held me lightly, and said the 60th sorry.
Even then, he did not change, and there was no explanation whatsoever.

I began to worry if there was something he was keeping from me.
What's wrong with you these few days? Nothing.
Then why are you acting so strange?
I am not.What can you say other than this answer?
Do you know I'm very worried, very insecure,do you treat me as your girlfriend?

I'm sorry...
I don't want to hear you say sorry again.
I put down the phone and he did not call back.
He doesn't even care about me. Maybe we should....break up......
this was the 99th time he said sorry...

From that day onwards, I never once called me or went to look for him.
Sometimes I get an anonymous phone call but everytime I said hello, it was dead,
i think it's a call from him, but why don't he speak up?
After one month have passed,

I couldn't contain the feelings I still have for him anymore
I went to his school to find him.
I went outside his classroom and looked around,but there was no sign of him.
excuse me, is XOXO here today?
I'm afraid he already stopped schooling

:Huh? Why? When was that?
He hasn't been in school for a month already.
Oh erms...thanks.One month....not in school for one month...
why is that so? I stumbled home.Called his hp

Sorry the caller is currently unavailable, please leave your message afterthetone....
I put down the phone, and called his house next,but there was no answer.
How can it be? The whole family migrated?
It seems as though he has already disappeared from the face on the earth leaving not even a single trace.

I couldn't find him....just as I was feeling distraughted,
the phone suddenly sounded,
it was my friend.He was one of his brothers and also my good friend.
Hey, what have you been doing? XOXO is in hospital.
REALLY? WHAT HAPPENED?

Oh he is in ZZ hospital, the one you stayed in last time. I'll be right there.
I used the fastest speed my legs could carry and when I reached the hospital
I saw that his parents were already there.
I asked them for the room number and flew across the hall.
He was lying on bed, looking at me, not saying a word, not moving a muscle,

Hey, what happened to you? Why didn't youcontact me?
He did not answer, and used the same stare on me again.
Come on answer me...why don't you speak?
A tear flowed down the side of his eye,

And it looked as though he used the greatest amount of strength
that he could master to say...
I'm...sorry...After that, his eyes went shut.
Hey, don't fool around alright...why say sorry to me?
Don't say sorry to me....please wake up....answer me please.

I wept and fell down on the side of his bed,
pulling his shirt I cried out..
Why do you have to apologise? Why don't you
give me an explanation instead?

I won't forgive you, wake up, saying sorry is no use...
If you don't wake up I'll never ever forgive you in this lifetime,
please I beg of you..open your eyes.....
That was the 100th sorry

A group of medical staff, doctors, nurses pulled
me away and tried to revive him. I had no strength to stand up...
My mind was a blank.... my eyes could only see a sea of black.
He did not leave this world...I merely lost the chance to touch him anymore.

But he would appear in my dreams sometimes,telling me how he was doing.
He's still accompaning me, still alive, in my heart.
would still laugh at my silliness, and call me his darling....
just that...he never apologise to me anymore.

After a month, his mom came to look for me,and gave me a box...
inside was a 100 photographs, everyone had a story behind them..
the reasons why he made me angry.
The first time, my dear, I did not purposely arrive late to pick you up.

I know this excuse is really lame,
but I didn't have the heart to tell you the truth then,
before I stepped out of the house, I felt a pain in my chest,
but I still made it a point to meet you, please forgive me?

The second time, my dear, I...
The third time, my dear, I...
The 100th time, my dear, I didn't mean to leave you alone in this world,
It had to be so because God did not give me the chance to say I Love You for this lifetime of mine,and to put the ring on your finger....

You are the first girl I apologised to.
And also the first girl I want to be with for the rest of my life...
Forgive me for not able to bring you happiness but I have thus become your angel,
always looking out for you...

Looking at you while you find your happiness...promise me...don't shed a tear...
I don't want to see you weep like this for me,
I Love You ~XOXO

How can I not cry? What you said was just too unbelivable.
The last photograph was of him in the hospital,
Although he was skinny, the smile on his face was bright as ever.

His face was white and yet
he tried his best to give his last smile on the last photo, the 100th.
At the time when he needed me the most, I wasn't with him.
I'm sorry.I held the photo tightly and cried for us...

LAZY WEDNESDAY!!

Woke up @ 3pm todae feeling sleepy and wanted to sleep some more... hahaz but then life is short y sleep so much when u die u get to sleep forever... Here's another Love story from the net... maybe one day i shall compile a book on all these stories i found on the net and sell it...


I have this special friend named John.He was very sweet and caring.
He always checked on me and treated me as a 'special' person.
Suddenly I realized,I was falling for him.
On March 14, he proposed to me and we became a couple.

He remained sweet and loving to me.
Every 14th of the month he would say, "Cheska, I have to tell you something..."
but will not continue it and say it was nothing.
I became curious, was he about to break up with me?


But Icontinued to trust him. our graduation is coming --on March 14,
4 years later.I knew that after this night, my family and I would be leaving for the states.
We knew this time would come, and I never expected it to hurt so much.
But I have to go and leave him. We promised to stay in touch and never forget each other.


He gave me a box of chocolates, flowers, pictures of us together and a locket.
and so, I left with memories of John in my heart.
We always e-mailed each other and communicated. I told him how I loved life here,
I partied every Friday with my friends, went shopping...I was living the life I always wished I had.


But I was never able to read John's last letter because of my hectic schedule.
I promised myself to read it when I found the time.
Then suddenly, it stopped (his letters and e-mails).
I was wondering why he isn't writing to me anymore.


But I understand maybe he has work to do. He didn't even greet me on March 14.
After several months still without communication,
I found time to read his last letter and
it was the most shocking moment in my life


--Cheska,This is my last letter to you.
remember when I was supposed to tell you something important but was never able to do so?
I wanted to tell you that my "moment" (it means death) is March 14,
exactly 1 year later after you left and 5 years after I proposed to you.


That was what the doctor said. I have this sickness,
I forgot what it was called. All I know is that I'm going to die soon.
I'm not telling you to come back after reading this letter, I just wanted to let you know that
I will always love you and that forever you will be in my heart.


I love you Cheska. Thank you for changing me. Thank you for everything.
Goodbye I'm gonna miss you
Lots of love, John


I wanted to cry and shout his name.
March 14 was 3 months ago! He died 3 months ago!
And I never knew because I was so busy enjoying my life here
when someone I loved so much was suffering from an unidentified sickness.


Up to this day I still feel guilty, I could have been right beside John when he was ill,
but I was here partying and eating my heart out. I was so guilty.
He died. John died. Until his last breath he wanted to be with me.
But I wasn't there.


I went back to the Philippines and visited his grave.
In it was written, "To John, who loved Cheska so much, may he forever rest in peace"
And he died on March 14. March 14, when this day comes,
I cry,laugh, think and feel guilty, this day I feel mixed emotions.


I hate myself. Why do I have to read his last letter when it was too late?
Why do I have to leave anyway? These questions keep going on my mind.
But I can do nothing now.John is up there. I guess he wanted me to be happy.
I still love John. And I miss him so much.

HARD LUCK?!?!

Uncle Murphy brought his law & visited me todae and i do hope it will be his last visit he will ever make and the futher he goes away the better it is... For those who don't know Murphy's Law = Anything that will go wrong will go wrong ....

Had a tough day didn't sleep at all yesterdae coz wanted to catch MU vs LFC match... then went to mit D,J,R,L @ 7.30 am to go finishing in D dad's fishing boat... but L was late and only woke up when we called his hp... After picking L from his house, got caught in the early morning mad rush on the ECP...

K & A joined us at the cheese prata shop @ west coast... Once we reached the pier... found out that tide is too low and the boat cannot be lowered into the water... Waited for a while... I caught a 1/2 hr nap and then it happened...

Yes, the sky opened up and well the relentless rain lasted the whole day... it only stopped when we were leaving the pier... But the rain didn't prevented most of us from achieving our aim.. we still went for our fishing trip @ 2pm when the tide was finally high enuff... K & A didn't sail coz they claim they got dinner dates and can't afford to come back to shore around 8pm which we were planning to do...

Went to the sea between Sisters & St. John island a "fishing hotspot" D claims... There were 3 other fishing boats already there... threw the anchor set out our fishing lines with live prawns as baits... 1 hr or so later i felt fatigue kicking in and proceded to found a cozy place on the boat for a "power nap"...

Woke up @ 6 pm found out that the boat is docked and the anchor of the boat is gone!!! I found out that a boat near us had caught 2 big fishes and since they didn't get any fish they decided to change location... while they were trying to retrive the anchor, something happened... the rope holding the anchor snapped and thats why we were back earlier then planned...

Proceded to blk 85 for some ba chor mee for dinner and yes the evening jam caught us along the AYE.... After dinner D dropped me @ tamp.. interchange and while i was walking home discovered my wallet was MISSING... D hp was flat so msg him to check his car for my wallet... Bingo my guess was right and i was glad i didn't drop it @ blk 85...

Once i reached home i took my bicycle and cycled to D house to retrive my wallet...thankfully nuttin happened on my trip there n back and reached home @ 11.15pm... tired and exhausted... Took some pictures of todae's trip might post it up when i get them(I don't own any dital camera devices)... Thankfully tuesday's gone and wednesday gonna be a better day...

Anyone got any good free web hosting site to recomend? just nid one to store my pictures and song files....

EXCUSE ME!!!!

Jay's new album and the lyrics to his newest sad song that i found on the net... For those who can't read chinese got han yu ping ying For those who don't understand chinese got english translation too.... wahahahahah...

藉口, jie kou, excuse....

翻著我們的照片 想念若隱若現
fan zhe wo men de zhao pian / xiang nian ruo yin ruo xian
Flipping through our photographs, thoughts of [you] are visible yet invisible

去年的冬天 我們笑得很甜
qu nian de dong tian / wo men xiao de hen tian
Last year's winter, we laughed very sweetly

看著妳哭泣的臉, 對著我說再見
kan zhe ni ku qi de lian / dui zhe wo shuo zai jian
Watching your tearstained face, telling me goodbye

來不及聽見　妳已走得很遠l
ai bu ji ting jian / ni yi zou de hen yuan
[I] have yet to hear it when you've already walked so far

也許妳已經放棄我　也許已經很難回頭
ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo / ye su yi jing hen nan hui tou
Perhaps you have already given up on me, perhaps it is already very difficult to turn back

我知道是自己錯過　請再給我一個理由說妳不愛我
wo zhi dao shi zi ji cuo guo / qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo
I know it's all my fault, please give me another reason, say you don't love me



就算是我不懂　能不能原諒我
jiu suan shi wo bu dong / neng bu neng yuan liang wo
Even if I don't understand, can [you] forgive me?

請不要把分手當作妳的請求
qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiu
Please don't use parting (breakup) as your request

我知道堅持要走 是妳受傷的藉口
wo zhi dao jian chi yao zou / shi ni shou shang de jie kou
I know wanting to go is your wound's excuse

請妳回頭　我會陪妳一直走到最後
qing ni hui tou / wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou
[Can] you please turn back, I will accompany you until the very end

就算沒有結果　我也能夠承受
jiu suan mei you jie guo / wo ye neng go cheng shou
Even if there is no conclusion, I can still endure

我知道妳的痛　是我給的承諾
wo zhi dao ni de tong / shi wo gei de cheng nuo
I know your pain is the promise I gave

妳說給過我縱容　沉默是因為包容
ni shuo gei guo wo zong rong / chen mo shi yin wei bao rong
You said [you] gave me tolerance, and silence was because of acceptance

如果要走　請妳記得我　如果難過　請妳忘了我
ru guo yao zou / qing ni ji de wo / ru guo nan guo / qing ni wang le wo
If [you] want to go, please remember me, if [you] feel sad, please forget me

Disclaimer:- The translation is NOT done by me if the translation sux do not blame me!!!

100% NO MORE SHIT!!!

Damn the 100% record is gone but the gunners are still unbeatean... 46 matches and counting maybe its time to get a new goalkeeper...

ARSENAL 2 : 2 BOLTON

CD!!!

Here's another story found on the web its about love again...

There was once a guy who suffered from cancer... A cancer that can't be treated. He was 18 years old and he could die anytime. All his life, he was stuck in his house being taken cared by his mother.

He never went outside but he was sick of staying home and wanted to go out for once. So he asked his mother and she gave him permission. He walked down his block and found a lot of stores. He passed a CD store and looked through the front door for a second as he walked. He stopped and went back to look into the store.

He saw a young girl about his age and he knew it was love at first sight. He opened the door and walked in, not looking at anything else but her. He walked closer and closer until he was finally at the front desk where she sat. She looked up and asked "Can I help you?" She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and he wanted to kiss.

He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her money for it. "Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she asked, smiling her cute smile again. He nodded and she went to the back. She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store.

He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.

So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store.

He bought a CD like he did everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...

!!!RRRRRING!!!

The mother picked up the phone and said, "Hello?" It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, "You don't know? He passed away yesterday... " The line was quiet axcept for the cries of the boy's mother.

Later in the day. The mother went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet.

She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The mother picked it up and started to read it.

It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love,Jacelyn

The mother opened another CD... Again there was a piece of paper.

It said: Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me? Love,Jacelyn

Love is... when you've had a huge fight but then decide to put aside your egos, hold hands and say, "I Love You"

I think the morale of the story is :- After buying cd must open lah!!!

BINGO!!

Its was Thursday yesterday and its the Idols again... hm... wildcard show my guess was correct and spot on again... the sly guy, hot mama maia and crybaby beverley got in as expected... Hw come the Idols finals only have 11 contestants in the first place i thought there should be 12? Must be a mistake or a conspiracy is going on??

Below is the song by the sly guy:-

Song: When i look into your eyes
Artise: Firehouse

I see forever when
I look in your eyes
You're all I ever wanted
I always want you to be mine

Let's make a promise till the end of time
We'll always be together
And our love will never die
So here we are face to face
And heart to heart

I want you to know we will
Never be apart
Now I believe that wishes can come true
Cause I see my whole worldI see only you

Chorus:When I look into your eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true

When I look into your eyes
I've looked for you all of my life
Now that I've found you
We will never say goodbye

I can't stop this feeling
There's nothing I can do
'Cause I see everything
When I look at your eyes

FINALIST???

I just finished watching the liverpool vs monaco match on channel 5 and i am definitely disappointed in the performance of last yr's finalist monaco... They played unbelivably bad and didn't even treatened the opponents goal at all... Anyway congrats to liverpool and i still can't belive that real madrid has lost 3 - 0 to leverkusen hm... i smell consipiracy....

Anyway i just drank some coffee and here is a story on salty coffee which i think a lot of ppl have read before but just for safe keeping purpose shall post it up :-

He met her at a party.

She was so outstanding,

many guys chasing after her,

while he was so normal,

nobody paid attention to him.

At the end of the party,

he invited her to have coffee with him,

she was surprised but due to being polite,

she promised.

They sat in a nice coffee shop,

he was too nervous to say anything,

she felt uncomfortable, she thought to herself,

"Please, let me go home.."

Suddenly he asked the waiter,

"Would you please give me some salt?

I'd like to put it in my coffee."

Everybody stared at him, so strange!

His face turned red but still,

he put the salt in his coffee and drank it.

She asked him curiously,

"Why you have this hobby?"

He replied, "When I was a little boy,

I lived near the sea, I liked playing in the sea,

I could feel the taste of the sea,

just like the taste of the salty coffee.

Now every time I have the salty coffee,

I always think of my childhood, think of my hometown,

I miss my hometown so much,

I miss my parents who are still living there.

While saying that tears filled his eyes.

She was deeply touched.

That's his true feeling, from the bottom of his heart.

A man who can tell out his homesickness

He must be a man who loves home,

cares about home, has responsibility of home..

Then she also started to speak,

spoke about her faraway hometown,

her childhood, her family.

That was a really nice talk, also a beautiful beginning of their story.

They continued to date.

She found that actually he was a man

who meets all her demands

He had tolerance,

was kind hearted, warm, careful.

He was such a good person but she almost missed him!

Thanks to his salty coffee!

Then the story was just like every beautiful love story,

the princess married to the prince, then they were living the happy life...

And, every time she made coffee for him, she put some salt in the coffee,

as she knew that's the way he liked it.

After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letter which said,

"My dearest, please forgive me, forgive my whole life's lie.

This was the only lie I said to you---the salty coffee.

Remember the first time we dated?

I was so nervous at that time,

actually I wanted some sugar, but I said salt.

It was hard for me to change so I just went ahead.

I never thought that could be the start of our communication!

I tried to tell you the truth many times in my life,

but I was too afraid to do that, as I have promised not to lie to you for anything..

Now I'm dying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you the truth,

I don't like the salty coffee, what a strange bad taste..

But I have had the salty coffee for my whole life!

Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anything I do for you.

Having you with me is my

biggest happiness for my whole life.

If I can live for the second time,

still want to know you and have you for my whole life,

even though I have to drink the salty coffee again."

Her tears made the letter totally wet.

Someday, someone asked her,

"What's the taste of salty coffee?"

She replied,

"It's sweet."

Love is not 2 forget but 2 forgive, not 2 see but understand, not 2 hear but 2 listen, not 2 let go but HOLD ON !!!! Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear. True love hears what is not spoken & understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...

6 OUT OF 6!!

Yes the 100% record still remains unbroken 6 wins out of 6 matches... a lucky victory for arsenal @ highbury against PSV... Won by a 1-0 margin thanks to an own goal by Alex... hm... One day they it be broken but lets hope the 100% record will continue as long as possible...

Found this on the net for those who have a bad temper please read below :-

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence

Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger,
the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down.
He discovered it was easier to hold his temper
than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all.
He told his father about it
the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day
that he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was finally able
to tell his father that all the nails were gone.
The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.

He said, "You have done well, my son,
but look at the holes in the fence.
The fence will never be the same."
When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one.

You can put a knife in a man and draw it out.
It won't matter how many times you say
I'm sorry, the wound is still there.
" A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one."

Friends are very rare jewels, indeed.
They make you smile and encourage you to succeed.
They lend an ear, they share words of praise
and they always want to open their hearts to u.

LOOK WHAT HAVE YOU'VE DONE!!!

Here's another song that i fancy recently by The Jets:- Look what you've done...

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

SHE WILL BE LOVED!!!

Here's another song that caught my attention recently by Maroon 5..... She will be loved...

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times
but somehowI want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my doorI
want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

And She will be loved
And She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

She will be loved (repeated)
Please don't try so hard to say good bye.

DESTINY??

Although i didn't need any comp stuff i still went to sls today i didn't choose to go there but there was no choice the choice has already been made and u juz have to understand "why"... Maybe its my destiny to go there... Maybe its becoz i have a misson and purpose to fulfill... Was going up a flight of escalator when i was reaching the top an elderly man nearly tripped becoz he was concentrating on reading something and didn't realised he had reached the top... i reached out my hand and managed to steady him before anything worse could happen to him... Maybe that was the purpose that i am suppose to fulfill... Maybe that is my destiny.... Yes and i juz watched Matrix reloaded before i went there...hmmmm...

Neo: Trinity. I know you can hear me. I'm never letting go. I can't. I just love you too damn much.

Neo: Why don't you tell me what's on your mind, Councillor?
Councillor Harmann: There is so much in this world that I do not understand. See that machine? It has something to do with recycling our water supply. I have absolutely no idea how it works. But I do understand the reason for it to work. I have absolutely no idea how you are able to do some of the things you do, but I believe there's a reason for that as well. I only hope we understand that reason before it's too late.

The Oracle: You have the sight now, Neo. You are looking at the world without time.
Neo: Then why can't I see what happens to her?
The Oracle: We can never see past the choices we don't understand.
Neo: Are you saying I have to choose whether Trinity lives or dies?
The Oracle: No, you've already made the choice. Now you have to understand it.
Neo: No. I can't do that. I won't.
The Oracle: Well, you have to.
Neo: Why?
The Oracle: Because you're the One.

Morpheus: Tonight let us make them remember: This is ZION, and we ARE NOT AFRAID.

The Architect: Hello, Neo.
Neo: Who are you?
The Architect: I am the Architect. I created the Matrix. I've been waiting for you. You have many questions, and although the process has altered your consciousness, you remain irrevocably human. Ergo, some of my answers you will understand, and some of them you will not. Concordantly, while your first question may be the most pertinent, you may or may not realize it is also the most irrelevant.

Neo: But if you already know, how can I make a choice?
The Oracle: Because you didn't come here to make the choice, you've already made it. You're here to try to understand *why* you made it. I thought you'd have figured that out by now.

The Keymaker: We do only what we're meant to do.

The Architect: There are two doors. The door to your right leads to the Source and the salvation of Zion. The door to your left leads back to the Matrix, to her... and to the end of your species. As you adequately put, the problem is choice. But we already know what you are going to do, don't we? Already I can see the chain reaction: the chemical precursors that signal the onset of an emotion, designed specifically to overwhelm logic and reason. An emotion that is already blinding you to the simple and obvious truth: she is going to die and there is nothing you can do to stop it.

Agent Smith: But, as you well know, appearances can be deceiving, which brings me back to the reason why we're here. We're not here because we're free. We're here because we're not free. There is no escaping reason; no denying purpose. Because as we both know, without purpose, we would not exist. [Several Agent Smith Clones walk in]
Agent Smith Clone 1: It is purpose that created us.
Agent Smith Clone 2: Purpose that connects us.
Agent Smith Clone 3: Purpose that pulls us.
Agent Smith Clone 4: That guides us.
Agent Smith Clone 5: That drives us.
Agent Smith Clone 6: It is purpose that defines us.
Agent Smith Clone 7: Purpose that binds us.
Agent Smith: We are here because of you, Mr Anderson. We're here to take from you what you tried to take from us. [Attempts to copy himself into Neo]
Agent Smith: Purpose.

The Keymaker: Only the One can open the door. And only during that window can that door be opened.
Niobe: How do *you* know all this?
The Keymaker: I know because I *must* know. It is my purpose. It is the reason I am here. The same reason we are *all* here.

Merovingian: Choice is an illusion created between those with power and those without